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[burnyoudown]

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[burnyoudown]

[Kavinsky was greedy, too. He always had been; there was so much he'd never been able to have. No one would suspect it, probably. Most people thought he was the kind of guy who had whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted, but he lacked things where it really mattered. He lacked love, specifically feeling loved. So the idea that Ronan was in love with him and wanted him and that Kavinsky got to have this- it almost felt too good to be true, like he was going to wake up and this was all a dream.

He rested his unoccupied hand on Ronan's shoulder and leaned in to kiss him. It was soft, not shy or hesitant just- sweeter than someone would probably think he was capable of. It was their first kiss and while he knew the spiel about how first kisses should be special he also knew it wasn't like either of them hadn't kissed someone else before this. But still- the hungry, devouring kisses could come later. It seemed like there was going to be plenty of time.

He hoped Ronan hadn't expected him to say no to this or be unsure. Though Kavinsky was very capable of being jealous (it was the primary reason he'd taunted Ronan about Gansey so much, before), he knew enough about Adam that being jealous of him would feel sort of wrong.]

You know...reality might be better than dreams.

[At least, where Ronan was concerned and being able to kiss him.]

[threesecrets]

[Ronan actually hadn't been sure if Kavinsky would say yes. It was easy to see him as the boy that had everything -- but there was the implication of something else, too. That when he'd said no that he'd stolen something. It was enough for him to hope that Kavinsky needed this too. Because Ronan did, even if he had needed Adam to tell him that he was allowed to feel this way, had needed to have someone he could talk through the mess of his feelings and keep him from flinching. Was it any wonder that he hadn't been able to manage it on his own that summer?

But Kavinsky puts his hand on his shoulder, and he kisses him and Ronan-- he thinks that this is okay, that this good too. They've lost time because he couldn't imagine loving two boys at once, but they still got here, in the end. And Kavinsky kisses him like it's something sweet, softer than he would have expected. Ronan's mouth is sweet too; yearning, needy, and he holds onto the other boy, lingering in the kiss, like there was no rush, like they had all night.

It's not desperate and devouring, but it's still hungry for him. It's still the sort of kiss that aches for him, it's just- not overtly sexual. Because while he meant it when he said that if Kavinsky wanted just one night together, he'd give him that... What he wanted was this. Touching, kissing, the feelings that Ronan is trying to say with his mouth without the words. Because the words are hard for him, they fail him so often when he needs them. Kissing is-- it's always been better, easier.

But it had felt like it would have been cheap, would have been cheating if he had tried to kiss him without saying it first. I'm in love with you. So he tries to say it with how he kisses him, pulls Kavinsky in close so that he can curl his arms around him, hugging him just because-- because he needs it. And he thinks that maybe the two of them wouldn't have spent so many months still hurting in such different, complicated ways, if Ronan had just hugged him back on that summer's day.

He doesn't really know how to say sorry, so he just- he tries to say this instead. That it means something. That they have a future together, if Kavinsky is willing to try.]

[burnyoudown]

[Kavinsky usually acted tough, sarcastic, inappropriate--the list went on. Really, deep down, he was sort of soft. Or maybe more than 'sort of'. Ronan wrapped his arms around him and K practically melted against him. It was everything he'd ever wanted, to be wrapped up in Ronan's arms and kiss him. Alright, so he wanted more than that, too, but this was just as important as everything else. Maybe more important. It was their first kiss and he didn't want it to end.

Mindful of the flower in his hand, he slid his arms around Ronan, other hand cupping the back of his neck. It was just- this moment was so important to him. It meant so much. Up until this moment, he would have given anything to experience this. Now he had it and- he pulled away for just a moment, sucking in a breath, and kissed Ronan again.

He hadn't even thought about it before saying yes. Of course, he was going to say yes. He didn't mind that Ronan was dating Adam, too. Kavinsky could share; he could play nice. Adam seemed like a decent enough guy, too, especially if he was alright with this. Ronan Lynch was in love with K and that- it meant the world to him. He didn't usually think of himself as a romantic but at the same time, he wanted almost nothing as much as he wanted to be loved. Especially by Ronan; he was Kavinsky's dream boy.

He'd always been a little envious of his boys, his pack. Proko had Swan and Skov had Jiang and Kavinsky'd had...no one. But that had changed now. Kavinsky had meant what he said; he thought that reality could be better than dreams if it involved Ronan wanting him.]