[This felt like a dream. Not because it was a dream but because he'd thought it would have to be a dream for Ronan to want him. Kavinsky was wary, a little suspicious, but he wanted to take this for what it was. He wanted things to be easy for once in his fucking life when it came to something he really wanted.
He took a deep breath, held it for a moment, and shook his head.]
I wish you'd said this sooner.
[Before Kavinsky had done even more regrettable things than normal. But Ronan didn't seem particularly upset about what he'd done. He seemed- a little sad. Fuck if Kavinsky knew why, though.]
Figured you'd just used me, you know? You used me and then left me as soon as it was convenient for you.
[He didn't sound as angry as he could have been, though. He wanted Ronan to tell him that he hadn't used him, that he'd wanted him even then. Kavinsky knew they weren't really friends and they didn't see eye-to-eye, but fuck. He'd bared his heart to Ronan as much as he'd known how to. He'd opened up to him, shared secrets, taught him. He didn't want to take Ronan away from his friends he just wanted to be important too.]
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He took a deep breath, held it for a moment, and shook his head.]
I wish you'd said this sooner.
[Before Kavinsky had done even more regrettable things than normal. But Ronan didn't seem particularly upset about what he'd done. He seemed- a little sad. Fuck if Kavinsky knew why, though.]
Figured you'd just used me, you know? You used me and then left me as soon as it was convenient for you.
[He didn't sound as angry as he could have been, though. He wanted Ronan to tell him that he hadn't used him, that he'd wanted him even then. Kavinsky knew they weren't really friends and they didn't see eye-to-eye, but fuck. He'd bared his heart to Ronan as much as he'd known how to. He'd opened up to him, shared secrets, taught him. He didn't want to take Ronan away from his friends he just wanted to be important too.]