[Ronan wasn't thinking quite so explicit- at least not yet- but it wasn't like there was much he wouldn't do if Kavinsky actually did ask for it. He was half-teasing, though; he could probably get Ronan to play along even without saying please.]
yeah? be still my heart.
[It's flippant, but the truth is that the reassurance means more than Ronan really knows how to own up to in the moment. But- he wants it. He wants... he wants all the stupid shit. He wants a place where Kavinsky feels like he really has a home, a place that wont be as empty for Ronan as the Barns. The familiarity means a lot to him, but he misses the stories, the barefoot mornings, the constant sound of other peoples' lives close enough to touch his own.
He wants to admit that he loves a boy and wants that boy to touch him without feeling guilty. But he's still working on it.]
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[Ronan wasn't thinking quite so explicit- at least not yet- but it wasn't like there was much he wouldn't do if Kavinsky actually did ask for it. He was half-teasing, though; he could probably get Ronan to play along even without saying please.]
yeah? be still my heart.
[It's flippant, but the truth is that the reassurance means more than Ronan really knows how to own up to in the moment. But- he wants it. He wants... he wants all the stupid shit. He wants a place where Kavinsky feels like he really has a home, a place that wont be as empty for Ronan as the Barns. The familiarity means a lot to him, but he misses the stories, the barefoot mornings, the constant sound of other peoples' lives close enough to touch his own.
He wants to admit that he loves a boy and wants that boy to touch him without feeling guilty. But he's still working on it.]