I know you did. You were always good to me, you know. Even when we were fighting-- I knew you cared.
[And then he's quiet and he forgets to fucking breathe because... because what the fuck. Ronan hadn't even considered that this might be an option, a possibility. And he knows that he shouldn't get his hopes up, because it's just a chance. And Ronan-- he isn't sure what would make Adam offer that to someone he was dating. He couldn't help worrying that the idea of working something out was something Adam didn't really want.
And even Ronan can recognize that that's the sort of thing that he'd have to talk to the other boy to be certain of. But somehow, the idea of kissing him just this once, that seemed a little less.. charged, a little less like he was stepping into something that could only make things worse.]
You and Adam.. talked about me? About kissing me? And you're sure he's really okay with it?
[There's something to the question, hopeful and shy and uncertain all at once. But he reached up, letting his fingers brush against Kavinsky's dark hair and then curling against the line of his jaw. Not kissing him yet, but it was a touch that said that he would, that he wanted to. Because of course he did, he always wanted to kiss Kavinsky. Much like how he always wanted to kiss Adam, but he didn't know how to talk about that. He'd never told anyone, outside of silent prayer.
Maybe things would have been better if he had, if instead of being scared at the idea of having to be Kavinsky's boyfriend when there was this other boy he liked, he'd just talked to him about it. He had always been more understanding with Ronan than Ronan was with himself.]
I don't think you would, to be clear-- but just for the record, if you're bullshitting me, I'll punch you in the face. But.. do you still want to kiss me? 'Cause I've never stopped.
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[And then he's quiet and he forgets to fucking breathe because... because what the fuck. Ronan hadn't even considered that this might be an option, a possibility. And he knows that he shouldn't get his hopes up, because it's just a chance. And Ronan-- he isn't sure what would make Adam offer that to someone he was dating. He couldn't help worrying that the idea of working something out was something Adam didn't really want.
And even Ronan can recognize that that's the sort of thing that he'd have to talk to the other boy to be certain of. But somehow, the idea of kissing him just this once, that seemed a little less.. charged, a little less like he was stepping into something that could only make things worse.]
You and Adam.. talked about me? About kissing me? And you're sure he's really okay with it?
[There's something to the question, hopeful and shy and uncertain all at once. But he reached up, letting his fingers brush against Kavinsky's dark hair and then curling against the line of his jaw. Not kissing him yet, but it was a touch that said that he would, that he wanted to. Because of course he did, he always wanted to kiss Kavinsky. Much like how he always wanted to kiss Adam, but he didn't know how to talk about that. He'd never told anyone, outside of silent prayer.
Maybe things would have been better if he had, if instead of being scared at the idea of having to be Kavinsky's boyfriend when there was this other boy he liked, he'd just talked to him about it. He had always been more understanding with Ronan than Ronan was with himself.]
I don't think you would, to be clear-- but just for the record, if you're bullshitting me, I'll punch you in the face. But.. do you still want to kiss me? 'Cause I've never stopped.