[Of course it was even a question. Everyone might have wanted Kavinsky but they also wanted things from him. They wanted drugs or forgeries or sex or just to make out with him for a while to say they had. So when Adam said he wanted more of him than he gave to the boys at his parties, it felt like his pulse skipped a beat or two. It was one thing to be wanted for the things he could provide and another entirely to be wanted for who he was. He could give more of himself to Adam. He could open up to him, let him inside. They were already in Kavinsky's head--how much scarier could it be, to be honest with Adam?]
Okay.
[He closed his eyes, drinking in the feeling of Adam's arms around him. One could argue that Kavinsky was never hugged enough and that was why he'd turned out the way he had. They'd probably be right. It was especially hard now to keep up appearances and keep his reputation intact when there was a part of him that was desperate for this kind of contact. It was different than the way he was physical with his boys, always touching or slinging an arm around their shoulders.
He didn't think Adam was going to judge him for this.]
When we're awake- I want you in my bed.
[It wasn't an innuendo, shockingly. He wasn't asking for sex. He just wanted to curl up with Adam and talk before they fell asleep again. About what Adam could do and how he'd gotten this ability and what the shape of their relationship could be.]
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Okay.
[He closed his eyes, drinking in the feeling of Adam's arms around him. One could argue that Kavinsky was never hugged enough and that was why he'd turned out the way he had. They'd probably be right. It was especially hard now to keep up appearances and keep his reputation intact when there was a part of him that was desperate for this kind of contact. It was different than the way he was physical with his boys, always touching or slinging an arm around their shoulders.
He didn't think Adam was going to judge him for this.]
When we're awake- I want you in my bed.
[It wasn't an innuendo, shockingly. He wasn't asking for sex. He just wanted to curl up with Adam and talk before they fell asleep again. About what Adam could do and how he'd gotten this ability and what the shape of their relationship could be.]